I’ve recently begun a new spiritual discipline—Journaling.
In my Celebrate Recovery Step Study we’ve been asked to write down our “calls to discipleship,” places in our lives we’ve been obedient to God’s call, places where we have in some sense pleased God.
We’ve also been asked to write down our “failure in our call to discipleship,” places in our lives where we’ve displeased or disobeyed God, or where we have offended our neighbor with a word or an action. We’ve been asked to follow it up with an immediate confession of sin and/or making amends.
I don’t know about you, but when I wait a whole week to think about my “call to discipleship” and my “failure,” there are usually two or three that stand out, but while journaling I’ve discovered that there are two or three or more every day. In fact, I’ve discovered that God is pleased with much (not all) that I do.
You see, for years I walked around with a guilt complex, always thinking that the bad outweighed the good. My failures seemed uppermost in my mind. I knew that God forgave and would forgive anything if I just confessed it. But I didn’t think there was that much in my life that God was pleased with. But, while journaling, I’ve discovered a couple of things:
• I can monitor hour-by-hour the good things God is doing in me and through me and thank God for them.
• I can remember my negative thoughts, words, or actions as they happen. I don’t get a chance to bury them in forgetfulness, but deal with them as they come up. And then I’m able to make amends where and when necessary.
• Journaling is also a way that I can practice the presence of God in my life. I don’t tend to mess up quite so much. And I don’t tend to say things or do things that offend others so much.
Journaling has been a boon to my spiritual life. I recommend it to all my Emmaus friends. It will also bring a new import and a new impact to your time with those in your Reunion Group.
De Colores,
Dan Patman
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